I'm grateful for...
...reading my book leisurely in the sauna today because it opened my mind to the revelation that my parents have gifted me with the defectiveness lifetrap they themselves have. And my dad, when he loves my mom most (thus raising her value to him) shows it by talking bad down about her in public in her presence. It's actually a sick person's way of expressing love. Not making it right, but providing insight behind his actions.
...my new roommate being nice and not unhealthy (keep me on the straight and narrow) and unavailable
and being a fellow fan of Breaking Bad and possibly watching a couple episodes from the newest season tomorrow after work.
...the way I didn't let my discriminatory incident get me down too much today.
Positive experience in last 24 hours:
While I was skyping with my dad, he told me how he felt sad about how stupid our airport goodbye was (twice in a row now)...so much so that after seeing he saw on the news that a small plane (twice the number of passengers than the one I was on) had crashed in Russia with no survivors, he broke down and cried to my brother about it.
Yeah, that was a hellish ordeal, that airport goodbye. Awkward, eyes welling up, emotionally exhausted from the day and my parents, and how shitty they and I made myself feel. Yeah it was stupid, but yeah there was no other way. I wish it would have gone differently, but such is life.
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