Paul, get out of my head. NOW

 So, I have this album of pictures from 2009 (first year), Stefan's birthday to be specific. There's a couple photos of me and Paul together, I've got my hand around his shoulder, glass in other hand. In the first I got my crazy eyes on and he's got a smirk ? think that's what you would call it. Anyway, it's the second that's my favourite. Same set up, except drink out of picture and we're both genuinely smiling really big smiles. Cept mine's maybe got a hit of drunk in it. haha He's kind of leaning in with his head toward me.

It's this second picture that I can't stop looking at incessantly. Like I fantasize what it'll be like when we see each other again. Before bed. It probably doesn't help I'm horny as a mofo cause it's that time of the month. But damn, I'm starting to think this might be a problem. But I can't bring myself to delete either, is it cause I love the way we both look super happy. Beats me, but I had to get that out to someone or somewhere.

Then again, I'm conflicted about the events that transpired with said guy and there's a twinge of hurt still in me.